okay so this is a little about me
ever since i was a little kid i wanted to be a good actress/singer and use my ability to help others, but i didn’t know why. well, i’ve realized it was because i wanted to help with the problems i saw around me, i.e. bullying, child abuse, poverty, etc. & i figured, if i was famous and had money, i’d be able to do that. because of what’s happened to me in my life, i’ve always wanted to help people and make sure they don’t suffer like i did.
however, i realized something: the people i admire, i.e. bo, darren, chris, etc., have all done theater/acting in high school, which i haven’t because i’d been too afraid to attempt for various reasons. and now i’m approaching senior year and i so desperately want to be in any and all plays that i can, but i’m not sure if that will happen.
but i’m also not sure now if i necessarily want to go to college because
- i’m not exactly sure if i want to major in musical theater or something else
- i don’t know where i want to go or if i’ll be able to go to college
- i don’t want to stay in new jersey after high school
- i’m just confused
i seriously just want to have enough money to help my family and give the rest to charities while doing what i love.
but i have unrealistic dreams lol
wow these are the things i think of when i can’t sleep. and it just depresses me.
if you did read this, omg why???
disregard me.
